ALWAYS AND FOREVER

Cross Pov

“Doctor, when is my wife going to wake up? It’s been over four days,”

I asked the doctor, who didn’t seem to have an answer, hearing that our baby was no more was the sadness thing I have ever heard, it brought me down on my knees, I cried my eyes out that day for the chance u had and lost, if only I had gotten to Katherine earlier, we wouldn’t have lost our baby and my wife wouldn’t still be asleep after four whole days, that day had been the worst days of my life, first having to watch the peramedics work on Kathy and bring her to the hospital, to waiting for the doctor to come and give me news and when the news finally came my worst nightmare had been confirmed, they couldn’t do anything to save our baby as whatever Ginna had done couldn’t be undone, in that moment, I felt like killing some one, felt liking making Ginna pay for everything with her blood, she has been arrested, that was all I knew for now, Louis who had turned himself in at the last moment had told the police everything and I knew they would both be going away for a long time but that wasn’t satisfying for me, no, I wanted them to suffer, especially Ginna, I wanted her to suffer as much as she put Katherine and even Pearl through.

Pearl had been found in a pull of her blood and had been brought to the hospital with Katherine, she had been unconscious when they arrived at the hospital but thankfully she was stable now, Katherine was the only one left, she had been sleeping for nearly four days now, I didn’t know just how long she planned on sleeping, I wanted her back with me.

“Your wife is doing fine and she will be up soon, we hope,”

“Thanks, doc,”

I said and left his office, it was the same thing he said yesterday, they have done their best, I could only just wait and hope, I just really wanted the miracle to happen soon, I wanted her up but at the same time, I was scared, it had hurt so bad finding out about the loss of our baby, how much more would it hurt Kathy when she finds out, I quietly walked back into her room and took my seat beside her bed, she was still sleeping, my family left earlier, they have been in and out of the hospital a lot and I go tired of seeing their concern and worried looks, I just didn’t want them seeing me like this so I had told them not to show up and I will call them when anything happens.This content © Nôv/elDr(a)m/a.Org.

“Kathy baby, it’s time to wake up, I don’t like it here without you, it’s so lonely and sad, please,”

I pleased holding her hand, it was warm, I placed a kiss on each of her fingers, silently begging her to wake up.

“Cross?”

I heard my name and looked up to see her staring at me, at first I thought I was hallucinating but then she called my name again.

“Cross,”

She said weakly, it brought tears to my eyes.

“Katherine, baby, you are finally awake, oh thank you, God,”

She tried to get up but I held her down.

“Don’t stress yourself too much just lay still, the doctor will be here soon,”

I said as pressed the intercom that summoned the doctor, they were in her room in a few minutes, I stepped aside and let them do their job, everything was going fine according to the doctor, we went to get some tests and scans done and why the time we returned, she was quite and not saying anything.

“Kathy? Honey? Are you okay?”

I asked helping her get back on her bed, she didn’t answer me as if she didn’t hear me.

“Katherine? Are you okay? Should I get the doctor?”

“I can’t feel it,”

“Feel what?”

I asked confused.

“I can’t feel it, I can’t feel the baby Cross, there is no movement,”

She let out, oh God, I was hoping she wouldn’t think about the baby, at least not for today, how do I tell her that the baby is no more.

“Cross, get the doctor, my baby, something is wrong with my baby, she is not moving,”

She cried rubbing her tummy, I moved closed to her hugging her.

“I am sorry sweetheart, I am so sorry,”

“What do you mean you are sorry? Go get the fucking doctor,”

She yelled going into a rage, I ran out instead of calling through the intercom as I did before, my mind didn’t even go there until I met the doctor, he came back with me after beeping his colleagues, when we got back to Katherine’s room she was in an even worst state.

“Doctor, you are here, my baby, she is not moving, I can’t feel her,”

“I am sorry ma,”

“Oh not you too, don’t tell me sorry, do something,”

She yelled at the doctor.

“I wish there was something we can do but there is nothing, your baby was already dead on arrival,”

The doctor blurted out to her, I couldn’t believe it, how could he just tell her like that? I walked past him and sat beside Kathy, she wasn’t looking okay at all, she held my hands tight.

“It’s not true, right? Cross, it’s not right?”

“I am sorry Kathy,”

“No, Cross, no, please tell me you are lying, tell me it’s all a joke, I can’t take this please, doctor, my baby is fine right? Right? Cross, my baby, our baby is fine right?”

She cried looking from me to the doctor and back to be, I couldn’t even reassure her, get tears brought mine back.

“I am so sorry baby,”.

“No, no, no, not my baby, I want my baby back, give me back my child, I can’t take this, please, Cross please talk to the doctor, my baby,”

She cried, losing control and going into full panic mode, more doctors came in and pushed me aside as they tried to keep her down, she was crying so much, I felt only pain, I was hopeless and I couldn’t even do anything to help her, I didn’t realize just how worst it would be for her, I hadn’t thought about it, my eyes watered again.

“Son, it’s going to be fine,”

My mom said coming to stand beside me holding my hands, I didn’t even know when she got in but I hugged her taking all the love and strength she had to offer.

The doctors came out a few moments later, I rushed to meet them.

“We sedated her for now, the news wasn’t pleasant and she needs a lot of time to get used to it, she would be up again in about two hours, we don’t want her to sleep for long as she just woke up, keeping an eye on her and showing her she isn’t alone is all you can do to help her now, she needs all the love and affection, losing a child is usually worst on the expectant mother,”

The doctor disclosed I was half paying attention, I just wanted my wife to be better again, I wanted us back the way we used to be before all these unfortunate things happened to us.

I sat with my mom in her hospital room waiting for her to wake up, even after two hours has passed, she still didn’t show any sign of waking up, getting scared that the doctors might have caused her to sleep again.

“Mom, it’s been over two hours and she is not up, I am scared,”

“Don’t worry son, she will be up soon, her body still needs to rest, see she is up already,”

My mom said, I looked at Kathy and found at staring at me.

“Kathy,”

I called, happy she was awake again and at the same time worried that she might start crying again, I went to her side and held her hands wishing that the sadness in her eyes would just go away.

“Cross, we lost our baby, and it’s all my fault,”

“No baby, no it’s not, it’s not your fault please don’t blame yourself,”

“I am so sorry,”

“It’s fine, we are going to be fine, okay, we will be just fine,”

“I wish we didn’t lose, I wish she was still here,”

“Me too, but just think about it, she is in a better place now, okay, and watching over mommy and daddy,”

“You think so?”

“I know so, I love you, baby,”

“I love you too, what happened to Pearl? She was beaten too,”

“She is fine, she has been discharged, Louis and Ginna has been arrested, your parents, Anna, your siblings, and Max all came, Marilyn came to see you too,”

I informed patting her hair softly, relief that she was taking this better than the first time.

“I will leave you guys, I need to tell your dad and siblings she is up, they are all worried, Kathy, don’t be too hard on yourself, you did just fine and it will get better okay?”

“Yes, thank you, Mom,”

Kathy replied to mom who left leaving just the both of us.

“Were you worried much?”

She asked me touching my face, relaxed into her touch, happy to finally have her back with me.

“I was, I thought I might lose you too, I wouldn’t have been able to bear it,”

“You are not going to lose me, you are stuck with me for life,”

“Cool, I love you, honey,”

“I love you more, can you lay close to me?”

She requested and I complied immediately, laying close to her and holding her.

“Cross? What would happen?”

She asked, I didn’t know how best to answer the question as I wasn’t sure too, u didn’t want to lie to her either.

“Honestly Baby girl, I don’t know but I know one thing, we are going to be fine, we got each other and our family, we will get over this just fine,”

“I believe so too,”

“Good,”

I hugged her closer.

“I don’t want to fall asleep, I have been sleeping for so long, but still I am feeling sleepy,”

She revealed, I kissed her forehead and looked at her, staring at those Sea blue eyes that I knew so well and fell in love with.

“You can sleep baby, I will be here watching you, I am not going to leave your side,”

“You promise?”

“I promise,”

“I love you Cross,”

“Love you more Kathy,”

I replied and pulled her closer, she fell asleep a few minutes later and I watched her until I too fell asleep…