First Love

LILY’S POV

I groaned, burring my face deeper into the pillow and resisted the urge to get up and kick asses of my two stupid brothers.

” Wake up sleepyhead.”

” Lily, come on sis.”

Ugh. These two are intolerable. Can’t a girl have enough of her beauty sleep?

I mumbled some colourful words then sat up only to saw a huge grin spreading on the face of two assholes. I rolled my eyes and threw my pillow at Josh who step aside and the pillow landed straight on the face of Dennis who pouted, cutely.

I laughed at them and shook my head at our usual morning routine.

” For f-ck’s shake, you two are men not boys, okay? So better act more mature.” I said which only made me laugh more at their funny expression.

” Rest of the joke for breakfast table. Now hurry up lazyass and have a bath, you’re stinking.” Dennis said and both of them hi-fived each other.

I rolled my eyes at their immature behavior and walked to the bathroom. As I stood in front of mirror, I couldn’t help but smile thinking about how bless I am to have big brothers like Josh and Dennis. They both treat me like I am their world. What else I could wish for? Josh is older then me by five years which made him of twenty eight and Dennis is four years older then me. Apart from my dad, they both are only person close to my heart.

You see, I am not born in normal family. My father and brothers are not someone whom I can proudly show off to world with a tag that they are best human being. They indeed are not human; they do things which make them worst then animals. I feel ashamed of them as a person but I can proudly confess that they are best father and brothers in whole around the world.

Dad is one of the most wanted criminal of the country followed by Josh and Dennis. They all are involved with illegal things like killing, smuggling, drug dealing and god knows what. They had always made sure that I’ll never be able to find their reality but unfortunately I did and that’s what I regret most. Because since the day I found them being a cold hearted murders, my human instinct have hated them but somehow my family instinct won the battle and I ended up with making peace with them.

I hate them. I do. Because they’ve done many heart wrenching things but I also love them too. I was always my daddy’s princess and little sister of Josh and Dennis. They adore me and treat me, affectionately. When they found out that I know their secret, they all were guilty and worried that I might leave them. Trust me, my hatred for them told me to cut all my ties with them but I was not able to neglect my family love for them which I felt from childhood. They might be criminals but they still were my only family.

That’s how, I made peace with my mental turmoil by pretending that I’ve never knew about their cruel reality but deep down, I still feel guilty for living with them when I know that they all deserve to be behind the bars of jail.

But I care from them. And if given a chance to choose between them or my instinct to let them punish for their heartless deeds, I will always choose them.

My mother had died when I was only two years old so I don’t know what to feel about her. Dad had never made me crave for motherly love because he loved me enough to meet her love. With Josh, Dennis and Dad by my side, I feel gratitude. So somehow I had put a stone on my heart and tried to remove the fact from my heart that they do things which are inhuman.

I took a long shower and quickly changed into some comfortable piece of clothing which was a black hoodie and a sweatpant. Grabbing my hairs into messy bun, I walked down the huge stairs. Right, my family was rich. Not just rich but more like richest, or whatever you can call.

” Good morning, Dad.” I chirped, grabbing a seat on the dining chair.

He tilted his head in my direction and passed a small smile while flipping the pancake. A delightful smell washed into my nostrils and I couldn’t help but wait impatiently for Dad to finish cooking the breakfast. Yep, he’s a great cook. Whenever he’s at home, it’s like his usual routine to prepare the mouth watering breakfast for us.

” Gee, at lest wear something decent. You look absolutely nerdy in that shitty hoodie and sweatpant. Oh and that messy hairs, eww. Girl you look like you’ve came directly from asylum.” And here goes Dennis with his usual asshole self.

” Dad, please tell them to stop.” I whined.

” Aww, little Lily is out of comebacks?” Dennis faked a frown.

I rolled my eyes and smiled wholeheartedly when Dad placed the breakfast on the table. By ignoring everything else, I started shoving as much as pancake in my mouth. Damn delicious.

” Gross.” I heard Dennis muttering in the background.

” Look dude, better shut that shitty mouth of yours otherwise I’ll shove this pancake down to your throat.” I threatened, being not in the mood to hear them throwing insults at me.

And that’s how I, Jack burst out laughing at the scowling expression of Dennis. Well the thing is, Dennis hates pancake.

” Okay kids now stop your regular episodes of mocking each other and finish your breakfast.” Dad said in light tone.

I nodded with a huge grin and turned my attention towards my family who was now busy in eating. Their face held nothing but an emotion of calmness. I wonder how such content smiles can hold so much darkness? How can they be this cruel and ruthless when they are so sweet to me?

I quickly shake off that thought and decided to blast the bomb. ” Dad, I have a date, tonight.”

” WHAT?”

” FUCK, NO.”

I scoffed at my extra possessive brothers and plastered a poor look in front of Dad. “Please Dad. I am already twenty three and I don’t want to die single.”

” Lily, you can’t date. You’re still small and not to mention naive. So total no.” Josh gave me duh look.

” Exactly.” Dennis added.

I frowned and bend my head low. They always do this. Not once I was allowed to date. I’ve never had any boyfriend because they act so protective of me that sometimes I really want to kick their ass. Tears gathered in my eyelids but I tried my best to take them back. I do want to have a normal life.

” Let the girl live.” Dad broke the silence making my head snapped in his direction.

” Princess, you can go but before that I am meeting that young man.”

I started screaming in happiness and jump to hug Dad. ” You’re best.”

” But who’s that kid with whom you’re going out?” Josh butted in.

I clenched my teeth and glared at him who was smirking. Bastard.

” I won’t share any information with you two.” I pointed my index finger towards Josh and Dennis who simply turned to Dad for help but he too just shrugged his shoulders.

” How’s your work going, princess?” Dad changed the topic to my utter relief.

I licked my lips and inhaled a deep breath. “Everything’s good. Just these days, the schedule is kind of hectic.” Well not to mention, a total energy draining schedule.

I am on my internship as civil engineer. I know I shouldn’t be working for someone else when I have enough money but I don’t want to let my degree go waste. I love spending my time doing something instead being worthless.

” And what about your singing thing?”

” Uh. Well I am planning to quit. I mean, I don’t like being famous and all.” I exhaled a shaky breath and stared at my sweaty fingers.

Singing is more like my passion. It is more like the desire to let go of my nerves while voicing a sweet melody which will calm the blankness of souls. I used to write the type of lyrics which were based on the healing nature of love and then sing them. I still remember how it all started, when I was in high school and won the inter school singing competition with the song of my own. After that it all grew and I don’t know how I ended up with acquiring a title of young singing sensation. From what I’ve heard from my manager and media, I guess people adored my song but the thing was that I’ve never revealed my true identity. My fans know me as someone who is invisible. I just don’t like the limelight thing.

But nowadays it feels like I am tired of everything. I just want to live my days peacefully, without any pressure. That’s why I am hoping to take a break and forget every single thing for few days. Mhmm, maybe I can take a vacation for few weeks.

” You’re depressed soul.” Dennis laughed.

” But no one knows who you actually are. They only know your fake name ‘Angel’ and nothing else. Then why this sudden change of mood?” Josh questioned, shifting to his concerned self.

I shook my head and smiled politely. ” I am Lily not Angel. And Lily has personal life. So yeah, actually I just want… no I just need a break from all this.”Belonging © NôvelDram/a.Org.

He nodded in understanding and soon both of my brothers started discussing that where they are sending me for the vacation. I shared a defeated look with Dad who just smiled at their immature sons.

” Ah, such a cute family timing.”

An unknown voice echoed through my ears.

I scurried my eyebrows in confusion. Who could be here, at this time? I cast a look at my brothers who were now stood up with a gun in their hands which was pointed towards the hallway.

Ever so slowly, I turned my head and my eyes automatically landed on a pair of deep black orbs. For a second, our eyes held an contact before he cracked his eyebrows up in a dangerous manner. I bit the corner of my bottom lips in hesitation and searched his face only to find him extremely handsome. The six o’clock subtle, straight jaw line, perfect lips and those beautiful eyes. Woah! Absolutely an exotic look.

“Put the guns down.” He spoke in a thick husky voice which made Dennis snicker in the background.

” Who the f-ck you are?” This time Josh spoke in a cold tone which caused a shiver to rush down my spine.

What’s happening here? I blinked in confusion but before I could process anything, a sharp pain ignited through my arms and all of sudden, everything was black in front of me.