Found Again

“I heard the news from Lance. You are not coming back?”

I wasn’t able to move or think. I just stared at my phone reading Andrew’s text message.

Is this real?

Why is he asking me if I’m not coming back?

Does Anne know that he sent me a message?

Is it okay for me to give a reply to his message? But he was the one who texted me first. I will just answer it. I guess, no one will accuse me of flirting or ruining someone’s relationship, right?

I took a deep breath then I took my phone and began typing my reply.

“I was planning to stay here to pursue my fashion styling career.”

I did my best to keep it short. I don’t want him to notice my excitement or whatever it is that I am feeling now.

In less than a minute, I saw a text message from him. My hand is shaking a bit. I don’t know why I am so nervous. I’m alone in my hotel room, but why am I so conscious of my actions or reactions.

“You told me that the reason why you left is that you need time to think and clear your mind. But why are saying different now?”

My forehead creased from his reply. The nerve of this guy to say this! You move on so easily, I came back for nothing! I don’t want to be angry with him. Because it was my fault why all these things happen. I was the one who broke up with him. I was the one who left and hurt him. So I don’t have the right to be angry with him for choosing to move on and fall for my best friend.

I feel warmth running through my cheeks. I wipe my tears but it keeps on pouring. I tap my chest because of the heaviness I am feeling now. I love Andrew so much that is why it hurt so much. I don’t think I can accept their relationship. I know I should, maybe someday but not now.

I did my best to calm myself. When I feel like I am a bit calm, I grab my phone and started to give him a reply.

“It was.” My short reply.

That two words took me minutes before sending him. I tried to think of more words but, I controlled myself. I don’t want to sound angry or what. Because I know that if I question his decision, it will backfire on me.

It took a while before I received Andrew’s reply.

“The change in your decision… Is it because of that guy Noah?”

Andrew’s latest reply reached me to my limit. The rage that I am feeling right now can’t be controlled! How dare he accuse me of that?! And if that is true, what it is to him?! He already has a girlfriend!

I clenched my jaw while typing an answer to him.

“How dare you accuse me of something with Noah?! And if it’s true, what is it to you?! You were the one who easily jump into a new relationship. You moved move on and fell for Anne! You did not even bother to follow the three-month rule. Maybe you already love her even before you court me! No one will be surprised because you guys are so close that the group keeps on teasing you two to each other! Maybe you were just confused with your feelings towards me, that is why when I left, your feelings for Anne became clearer. Come to think of it, you should thank me for breaking up with you! Because of my sudden decision, you have a way to pursue the one you truly love. Don’t worry, I will stay here as long as I could so that you guys can freely announce your relationship. I will not stop you two from telling everyone about your relationship. I will go back there when I have already moved on and have a boyfriend so that you don’t need to worry about me! Bye!”

After I send those long text messages to Andrew I blocked his number and all his account on my phone. The nerve of that guy! I didn’t expect that he will stoop that low. He even planned to accuse me of falling for someone else so that he will have an excuse for our group when he announce his relationship with Anne!.

I was excited about nothing!

“Are you okay?”

I gave a forced smile to Noah. He invited me for lunch here in his restaurant to help me with my vlog content. You heard it right, I decided to have my own Youtube channel. I have many ideas which made it difficult for me to decide on what concept would I want with my vlog or channel. But one thing is for sure, Noah will be my first guest on my vlog.

“I’m okay. I’m just confused about what exactly do I want for my channel.” I told him though it’s not the truth.

I still can’t over with my conversation with Andrew last night.

“I don’t think that’s the reason why you look so lost and not yourself right now,” Noah said in a serious tone.

“Do I look that obvious?” I asked him.

Noah nodded his head. “I don’t want to force you to tell me your problem. I know that’s too personal, but I also wanted you to know that I am here, willing to listen to whatever it is that is bothering you. You can trust me.”

I know that Noah is being sincere with what he said.

I heaved a sigh. “It’s about my ex-boyfriend. He texted me last night.”

I told Noah everything that happen, how I met him, how we met Anne, his confession of his feelings for me, I also told him about Jester and our reunion. My confusion, my decision to break up with him and leave the country. And lastly, what I witness after I returned to the Philippines and why I am here right now.

“I honestly don’t know what to say to make you feel better. Everything happened so fast with and that guy. He fell too fast, maybe that is also the reason why he move on so fast and jump into a new relationship. You may also be right, he may really just realize what he truly felt about the girl when you left him.” Noah said in a serious tone.

What he said makes sense. Andrew fell too fast, that’s why he can move on fast. What about me then?

“Just like Andrew? Do you think I can also easily move on?” I asked him with eagerness in my heart.

“Maybe yes, maybe no. I really can’t say. I am not you. But I am sure with one thing…”

“And that is?” I said sounded impatient.

Noah chuckled. I rolled my eyes at him.

“Loosen up will you?”

“Whatever!” I said then rolled my eyes again.

He just smiled at me. “One thing is for sure, everything happens for a reason. Our meeting on that day may not be an accident. Maybe it’s God’s way of leading you on your real path.”

Noah’s statement penetrated my heart.

He continued his statement. “You told me before that your dream is to work in media, but you can’t pursue it for some reason. Your heart to experience working in the entertainment industry or television pushes you to study fashion styling just to be an assistant to your celebrity friend. But little did you know that your desire to do everything just to fulfill or experience the industry that you are dreaming of lead you to Lush and become one of their ambassadors. Isn’t that a clear message?”All text © NôvelD(r)a'ma.Org.