Chapter 19 Making love
Arike’s POV
“What are you going to do?” A tear slipped from my eyes.
“I don’t know what to do.” He mumbled as he hugged me back.
I couldn’t bear to see him hurting. It felt like I was the one hurting badly anytime he was like this. And the reason wasn’t far-fetched. I love him! But I never wanted to admit my feelings because I can’t stand a chance.
I have been hiding my feelings since high school. To be honest, it had hurt me to see him date several women. I know I would just remain as a best friend in his life and nothing more so I didn’t try to get my hopes him.
“But.. I wish I could just end everything.” He pulled away from me. I could see tears at the corners of his eyes.
“Hey..” he placed both hands on your cheeks. “I know.. I look pitiful but I don’t want you to cry for me.”
I shook my head but I couldn’t stop the tears.
“Please don’t cry.” He kissed my forehead.
And the feelings came rushing in – I didn’t want him to stop at just kissing the forehead.
“Dayo..” I whispered as we stared at each other intently.
“Arike..” Slowly he brought his face closer to mine that I could feel his breathe on me. He kissed me and I kissed him back. It was my first so I wasn’t really good at it but I managed to go in line with what he was doing. I didn’t want it to end. His hands came down to my waist, pushing me closer to his body as my hands went around his neck. He lifted me up, my legs wrapping around his waist as we didn’t break off the kiss.
At that moment I wanted to have all of him not minding the fact that he was soon getting married.
Dayo pulled backward to look at me. “We.. we.. shouldn’t -” I cut him off with a kiss.
He stopped again. “Are you sure about this?”
I threw caution into the wind and kissed him again. We can deal with whatever will happen later.
Dayo motioned towards the bedroom. He lay me on the bed as I pulled over my nightie, revealing my naked chest region. I moaned when he sucked on my nipples.
I enjoyed everything he did to my body. It wasn’t just sex to me but we made love. And we did it all night long.
“That was how it happened.” I whispered.
“Geez! I know it was your first! But how can you be so dumb to the extent of having sex without protection! You’re 24! I expect you to act up to that age! And as for Dayo.. he’s the one with more experience, he should have known better.”
“There was no condom.” I mumbled.
“And so? He should have used the withdrawal method! You both are so dumb!” She spat angrily.
“He was careful… but we got carried away in the shower and he didn’t remember to… pull out. And it wasn’t his fault… I had forgotten to use the pills he asked me to buy.”
“Did you buy it?! Obviously No! You didn’t use it.”
“I forgot.. I totally got busy with work.”
“Oh my God! What do I do with, Arike?”
“I am sorry.”
“Sorry for yourself! So what happened after that?” She asked.
*FLASHBACK*
I woke up to meet empty space beside me. The time was 6:05am. Dayo had left because he promised to leave before anyone wakes up. I felt sad that he didn’t even say goodbye.
But relief rushed through me when I heard the shower running in the bathroom. I felt the soreness between my thighs as I got out of bed and walked to the kitchen.
I drank a whole glass of water – I was on the third glass when I heard Dayo calling my name.
“I am in the kitchen.” I shouted.
Soon he appeared in the doorway, fully dressed to leave.
“Good morning.” He greeted with a smile. No shyness.
I was a bit shy to look at him but I tried to act normal.
“You’re leaving already?” I asked.
“Yes….” His forehead creased as he studied my expression. “You want me to stay?” He asked with a smile.
“No.. no… you can go.. I have to prepare for work too.” I stuttered.
“Alright.” He replied.
I cleared my throat. “So.. what are you going to do?” I asked.
Now is the time to deal with our leftover problems.
“Call off my wedding just to be with you?”
“No.. no.. I wasn’t thinking like that. I.. I.. mean… hey.. I know what we did last night nothing. And –” I paused.
So I can think about everything now. Last night, I didn’t care about anything other than having Dayo.
I didn’t know he was close to me until I felt his touch on my face.
“Look at me.” He said but I didn’t look up at him.
“Arike, look at me.” I did as he instructed. “Everything we did last night means a whole lot to me.”
I could see the sincerity in his eyes as I looked into them.
“Dayo?” I moved away from him.
“Listen I have been hiding this feeling for a long time now. I tried to let go by dating other women but I felt drawn to you all the time. And I didn’t want to ruin our friendship that’s why I didn’t take a step to tell you about how I feel.” He said.
I hope we haven’t ruin this long term friendship because of what happened last night.
“And last night… felt so real. Now that we have admitted our feelings, I feel like I should call off my wedding just to be with you.”
I admitted that I love him while in bed and all he did was kiss me without saying a word.
“I am not expecting anything from you.” Was all I could utter at the moment.
I tried to put up a facade that what happened last night was just for fun.
“Last night we just got carried away and let our hormones.. or emotions rule us.” I faked a smile.
“Seriously? How can you say that after admitting that you love me?” He snorted.
I avoided his gaze and went over to the sink. “Look… I am not expecting you to call off your wedding and be with me.”
I started washing the plates in the sink.
“Fine.. I know it’s easier said than done but that’s my wish.”Text content © NôvelDrama.Org.
“Wishes don’t come true at times.” I said.
A wish that can never come true. It’s too late to call off the wedding. His father would definitely disown him if he does anything stupid. And that means his inheritance will be gone too. Though I feel bad for Dayo, the fact that he’s getting married to someone he doesn’t love but I can’t let him lose everything because of me.