EIGHTEEN
I bent down and touch the blood. My body trembled when I realized that it came to my womanhood. I feel the sticky liquid and when I saw it—I was more terrified when I realized it’s blood from my vagina.
“Hun-Hunter, our baby,” I called to Hunter with no reaction as he looked at me. His blank eyes just stared at me likes nothing happen.
“Hunter, please help me—- my baby, my child, please help me to save my baby.” But he just kept looking at me even the blood continued to flow. I cried while trying to cover my vagina where the blood flow increased.
“Baby, maybe, Ley miscarriage the baby.” Hunter still has no emotions. It’s like waiting for my blood to run out. “BABY! WHETHER IS THAT YOUR CHILD OR NO, THAT’S STILL A CHILD. We’re not criminals! You’re not a criminal!” Kyla’s shout was accompanied by the confusion that was brought Hunter back to reality.
Hunter moved and immediately approached me. “Get the car key, Kyla, we’ll bring her to the nearest hospital.” He commanded Kyla who act in a hurry. He put me in his arms. “Hang on Ley, we’ll be there at any moment,” he told me while carrying me.
I felt dizzy not because of the blood flowing through me, but because of the fear that my baby might be harmed. I felt everything is spinning around me and I wanted to close my eyes. “Stay awake Ley.” I heard Hunter say. I wanted to follow what he said but I feel my eyes are so heavy. “Don’t close your eyes, Ley.”© 2024 Nôv/el/Dram/a.Org.
But too late, because when I felt whole blood gushing in my vagina. I also lost consciousness and cannot hear anything.
I WOKE up in an unfamiliar place. I looked at the ceiling with a lot of light then rolled my eyes. The surroundings are white and I can smell medicinal alcohol. There seems to be a blockage in my nose as well.
“Ley,” Mommy was next to me while holding my hand. “You’re awake.” Mom’s said while crying then tightened the grip on my hand. I am still confused about what was happening.
“Ley.” I looked at Hera who had already spread the mascara on her face. While looking at them I tried to remember what happened.
It became clear to me what had happened, I was in the hospital because I was bleeding and in my nose is oxygen. Hunter rushed me here, I just don’t know how many hours or days have passed.
“What happened Hailey?” daddy asked while clenching his fist, I can also see in his appearance the control of anger. Kyla and Hunter were also there. The clothes they were wearing were different. Maybe the day has passed. Next to them were Hunter’s fathers who looked at the two with full of anger.
I didn’t answer daddy, instead, I looked at mommy.
“M-mom, my baby?” Mom didn’t answer. She was just crying and crying while holding, hugging, and kissing my hand.
“Mom,” I call her again.
Mommy wouldn’t even tell the truth. But I seem that I already know what happened.
“Ley, the baby came out before you got to the hospital,” Hera said while crying.
“Hailey, what happened?” dad asked again.
I didn’t answer dad and I just turned around and cried.
“Shhh enough baby, we’re here for you,” Mom said while caressing my back. “Sweetheart, not now please.” I heard mommy scold daddy.
My baby, even if I have only known him in my womb for a day, it’s still too much pain to know that he’s gone. I just found out that there was life in my stomach but it also disappeared immediately.
I still have many plans and thoughts for him but I was not even given the opportunity to see him. At least I could feel the fluctuating size of his roundness in my stomach. Her movement in my womb.
I’m a bad mother, I am useless because I didn’t even protect him. How else will I develop my future offspring? How can I tell to my future children that I did not protect their eldest while it was still in my womb? It’s all my fault.
Me!
Because I became weak and became selfish.
I planned to use him to get his father. What happened to my baby was very painful for me but no matter what I do there is nothing I can do. He is gone and he can never be brought back into my womb.
I heard the door open. It looks like a doctor because he said that I can go out anytime and I’ll just get well at home.
I slept for three days because my body could not handle the strength of the medicine that was injected into me to clean my uterus. Mommy insisted that I be taken home to our heritage place Bulacan. But I heard Hunter say he would take me home.
Dad opposed him, but Hera said to let her brother-in-law Hunter take care of me. We should have more time to spend together especially now that our baby is gone.
Hera emphasizes that Hunter is my husband, a father to my baby. We are both lost so we must sympathize with each other. Daddy did nothing but follow Hera. I also heard dad say I was old and I already knew what I was doing. But he warned Hunter that when repeated something bad happened to me. They will take me even if I don’t want to.
I did not argue with them. I don’t have time to answer or decide for myself or for anything else. If Hunter wants to take me home I won’t contradict him. Even if he kills me in his house I don’t give a fuck.
No one would be hurt by the fact that I was the one who killed my own child, because of my stubbornness I lost my baby in just a blink of an eye.