I’m Not Just A Human

Tomorrow I give birth to my sweet baby boy and I am so overjoyed but I can’t help but have a little sorrow in my heart because I know this means my time is up. Tomorrow I bring my boy into the world and I take myself out.

Right now I am sitting at the boys desk, finishing the book I wrote for the twins and for Nolan. It’s  a reminder for them that even though I won’t be there I still love them. And it also has notes to tell Nolan how much I love him and how I wish he has a long and happy live. I asked Kendra if she wanted to write anything but I haven’t been able to get in contact with her for a couple of days. I feel her but I just can’t reach her for some unknown reason.

Time skip…

I can’t help but laugh as the boys struggle to pack the baby bag that they have to take to the hospital. They can kill a entire army but can’t fit diapers and baby clothes into a bag. After they finally finish with the bag they come sit next to me on the bed.

Right now I’m listening to the baby’s heart beat and I can’t help the tear that escapes my eye. Grayson kisses it away.

“I can’t believe I won’t wakeup to your beautiful face anymore. I can’t believe that I won’t be able to hear your adorable laughter or see your gorgeous smile after today.” He says softly. I take his hand in mine.

“But you will hear it. You will see it. My smile and laugh while be with Nolan. I will always be with you guys even if I am not with you. You have given me so much. I will never be able to thank you guys enough for all the joy and happiness you have brought into my life. I love you guys so much.” I finish and kiss them both. They don’t say anything back. I know they don’t know what to say, but I can feel their emotions.  I can feel their love for me and that in it self is a blessing.

As my contractions get worse the boys take me to the hospital. People always ell you have wonderful it is to be a mother but no one ever says how much pain you have to go through before you finally have your baby.

I scream in pain as the time shortens before I have to push. I’m on so much pain and I  call kendal to give me support but she doesn’t answer.

“Push!” I hear the doctors scream. I have no energy and it hurts so much, but I keep trying. I push and push until I hear a little voice.

Nolan voice.

He is crying. The doctor lays him down on my chest. He was so small and beautiful.  He had Gregson eyes, my colour hair and Jackson cute nose. He was perfect.

“I love you so much” I softly whisper to him. He grabs my finger as I rabe his little cheek. I try to look at him even more, but my eyes are slowly closing. I try my best to keep them open but I feel myself drift away.

The last thing I hear is Nolan crying and Gray and William shouting.

And then

It all went black

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4 weeks later.

I hear soft voice.

The voice sounded like the most beautiful melody. I try to open my eyes to see where these beautiful sounds come from. I try and try , but I can’t seem to open them.

“Sophia”

“Sophia, came back to us”

I hear the beautiful voice say.

I try again and this time I succeed.  Once I open my eyes, I’m speechless. I’m in my bed. I’m in Willism and grays bed. Both of them are sitting on each side of me. With the most handsomest smiles ever.

“Welcome back, babe”

Gray says to me and leans down to kiss me.

“How?” Is all I manage to say.

“Kendra. She made a deal with the moon goddess. She asked her to only take her away from the earth not both of you.” Gray explains. As he does my heart breaks for Kendra but it is also fulled with gratitude. My eyes full with tears as I realise that I got to stay with my mates. I jump up from my laying position and hug them both. Hug them as if I was about to loose them.

I pull away and my eyes open wide.Nôvel(D)rama.Org's content.

“Where Nolan?!” I ask in excitement.

Grayson stands up and walk out of the room and shortly returns with a small boy in his hands

Nolan

He hands him over to me and Nolan is even more gorgeous then I remembered. I look up from my beautiful baby boy and then to my handsome mates and tears start to form. I close my eyes as my heart fulls with pride and happiness

Thank you Kendra

Are the last words I say to my saviour.

The end