SAVE ME

Annabelle Dennis

The room was too quiet for my liking and it’s not like we haven’t had a serene ambiance before but it was too intense. Even when we were eating dinner, we just shared looks and smiles and that was all.

Morgan has been extraordinarily quiet since I told her about my past, that was something I have never disclosed to anyone aside from Pastor Ricard and now her. I felt that I should tell someone and she was someone that needed to hear my story because she is in a dark place and I was there so I hoped that it brought some light to her and she can finally let go and not make her sad.

I don’t regret telling her about it but I am just worried about how quiet she got when I was done sharing with her.

Morgan has always been my baby since I decided to take her with me from that hospital, I have been so overprotective of her and never wanted any bad to come to her and will always do.

I could see the sadness her eyes held when I explained all that I have been through in my teens and about the baby I lost. It was hard for me to get over that but I was glad GOD gave me a chance to redeem myself and go according to the promises He has for me.

That is what I want people to see when I tell them about my story, they should thank GOD for my life and for the second chance I was given, they shouldn’t be sad because He wipes the tears of those who weep and heals the brokenhearted.

GOD proved over and over again that I was never a lost case, to begin with and just because I messed up one time doesn’t mean I can’t get a second chance. Since I was sorry and was ready for a second chance, He gave them to me and I am so grateful to him.

He is great and greatly to be praised.

“Ann” I was snapped out of my reverie by Morgan’s soft voice. I look up at her with a smile on my face and she returned it too.

“Yes, darling?” I answered her and she cleared her throat.

She did look like she was having trouble saying what she wanted to say “Everything is okay with you?” I asked worriedly.

“Oh yeah, I am. I am definitely fine, I just uh… I… uh… I just… uhm,” she shook her head and then cleared her throat again. “I wanted to ask if you could refer me to some Bible verses I can read tonight and what they can do for me,” she asked.

This was what she felt reluctant to ask? I chuckled then placed my hand on hers that was on the table.

“Sure dear” I stood to my feet and signaled for her to follow me which she did. We walked up the stairs and I started talking to her about one of the greatest books in the Bible that also act as a daily guide to all your work and everything you do.

“The book of Proverbs?” she asked and I nod when we got upstairs and were now walking to my room “Why though?”

I stopped and she did so “It has helped me a lot in my walk with GOD and taking up the right decisions when I choose to listen,” I say and chuckled “It has thirty-one chapters which you can take a chapter per day. It teaches you how to live a fulfilled life every day of your life” I explained to her.

“We all are humans and there are times when you’ll get tempted to do things that would not, please GOD but reading the chapters will be a daily reminder for you not to go astray and keep you on track.

“Okay, so today is November 15th so I have to read the fifteenth chapter?”

“Yes, dear or you can freestyle for this month and then start the new month with the first chapter,” I told her and she nods her head.

“Okay, okay” we entered my room and I grabbed my Bible as we sat crisscrossed, facing each other.

“So, as you read the book of Proverbs, you can also start reading from the first book in the Old Testament which is Genesis so that you get more in-depth of the word of GOD. It is like you taking out time to talk to GOD directly and knowing more about Him every time you do so” I explained to her.

A little frown creased her brows as she looks at me “Getting to know more about Him?” she asked and I nod in response “How then will He get to know more about me too? Since you are reading His book to learn more about Him, does He too have a book He reads to learn more about me?” she asked and I couldn’t help but laugh.Text property © Nôvel(D)ra/ma.Org.

I think I was expecting a question like this from her.

I handed her my Bible “Open the book of Jeremiah 1:5” I told her and she opened it from the middle, searching for it.

“Where is it?” she asked when she couldn’t find it after a moment.

“Look at the table of content and it’s after the book of Isaiah” she nods and checked it then stopped at a particular page

“I am here now”

“Just like what the table of content did for you, guided you to the chapter you wanted to go to, that’s what GOD does for us when we ask Him for guidance,” I say and she nods and then smiles at me.

“Okay,”

“Yeah, now read the verse”

“Before I formed thee in the belly, I knew thee; and before though camest forth out of the womb, I sanctified thee, and I ordained thee a prophet unto the nations” she looked at me when she was done reading it.

“That verse lets us know how much GOD knows about each and every one of us even before our mothers gave birth to us, He knew us from the start more than we even know ourselves”

“Everyone in the world?”

“Everyone in the world” I confirmed for her and she mouthed ‘wow’.

“He must be really intelligent then like who can know so many people, everything about them and that without spying on a book to keep track,” she said and I could see how impressed she looked knowing that part of GOD. “He is an interesting man”

“He is a Supreme Being and His name is GOD, He knows not only us but our thoughts. Everything we think about before we ever act toward them. Jeremiah 17:10 says that” she checked the table of content and searched for it.

“Ten verse seventeen?” she asked for confirmation.

“Seventeen verse ten” I corrected and she nods.

“I the LORD search the heart, I try the reins, even to give every man according to his ways and according to the fruit of his doings,” she read out loud and looks up at me. “That’s so cool” she grinned “Like a mind reader”

I laughed at that and shook my head

“He knows everything, that is why we need to ask for Grace to keep evil thoughts away. No one is perfect, there is nobody that would tell you he doesn’t have a bad side, we all do but asking for Grace so that it doesn’t overtake us is very important” I explained to her.

“Hmm… you told me that this GOD man is good and He created everything on the earth” I nod in response and saw her brow crease “My question now is, if we humans have bad sides, definitely GOD has too? And if He is good, why to let us have a bad side?” she asked and I smiled.

“Dear, I understand that you have lots of questions concerning knowing everything about GOD and his doings but this question that you asked will be a talk for another day. When you learn about a topic, you start with the basics same with learning about GOD, as you grow with Him, you learn deep insights about Him and His works, okay?” I say to her and she nods.

“What I want you to work on now is what I told you earlier. Read your Bible daily and gain more insights. He shows himself to His people as you grow together and remembers this, just as you learn to trust GOD, GOD needs to trust you too” I said to her.

“Trust me? If He knows me, He will definitely trust me, right?” she asked and I shook my head.

“You can know anybody and still not trust them” I held her hand in mine then drew closer to her “When you trust someone, what do you expect from them?”

“Their trust, loyalty, kindness, and an assurance that they would never turn their back on me when things get shaky” she responded.

“That’s how GOD trusts you when you make a decision to stay with Him and learn of Him. He wants to show us everything but you need to be loyal to Him and not betray Him even when things get messy or it feels like he isn’t there, keeping your Faith in Him alive makes him happy” she nods then smiles.

“I can feel excited to just talk to him now” she grinned and it made me happy.

My prayers are answered. Thank you, LORD.

…

Elizabeth Victorham

I heard the sound of the door opening and closing, quickly I rushed out of the kitchen to White already sitting on the couch with his head resting back on the couch and his eyes closed.

He looked so tired, it was written all over him.

“Were you able to get across to him yet?” I asked and he immediately raised his head to look at me then shook his head and lay back on the couch.

“I am quite tired, can I get something to drink first?” he asked and I apologized before rushing back to the kitchen to grab a cup of chilled water for him.

“Here you go” he sat up, took the cup from me, and drank the entire content in one go then placed the cup on the table as he looked at me.

“Thank you,” he said and I smiled.

“I tried to make some lunch but it got burnt… again. I will order you something when you feel hungry” I said and he shook his head with a small smile on his lips.

“It’s fine Liz, it’s okay”

We stayed quiet for a moment before he spoke.

“The only option we have now is to let him be arrested and pay for all his doings” he looks at me with sympathy. “No more coverings” he added.

I took in a sharp breath of air and held it in for some seconds before letting them out slowly.

“Yeah, I get that. I am tired… tired of covering up for him, he…” I could feel the tears gather in my eyes as I closed them and let out a sigh “He needs to go” o said with a whisper and opened my eyes.

White had that sad look on his face as he looks at me.

“If we don’t let it happen now more lives will be destroyed and I am sure you don’t want that to happen?” he asked and I nod.

“I do feel like I failed. I failed everyone, him and my parents. I let us get separated and destroyed my family with my own hands and… I don’t know, I really don’t know White” I said to him as I bow my head.

I heard him sigh, then heard light steps he took towards me and he settled beside me as he took my hands in his and gave them a comforting squeeze.

“You need to stop blaming yourself for certain things. They have happened already and there is nothing you can do about what has already been done. All you can do is ask for forgiveness and try to move on with your life, holding on to it wouldn’t undo it but just give you more headaches and worries” he said and I nod.

“This isn’t the end of the world Elizabeth, it isn’t. You made a mistake, fine, people do make mistakes, it just shows how imperfect we all are and should learn how to let go so that we don’t get stuck in our sins of the past” he said.

I wiped the tears that managed to fall then nod my head “Thank you, White” I thanked him “Let’s end this” I said and he smiles.