Chapter 182 Each Goes His Own Way
"You might as well not explain anything at all," Lucia said in a cold voice.
Arthur, regardless of Lucia's attitude, continued to say in a low voice.
"I have to explain, I never betrayed you. Though I did do something wrong, it was really just an accident. I don't want you to take it as my cheating on you. I still love you."
Lucia only feel that she heard a joke. She let out a snort of laughter and asked Arthur.
"You've been engaged. Love me? The engagement ring is on your figure. An accident?"
After saying that, Lucia glanced at the piercing engagement ring on Arthur's middle finger.
Arthur met Lucia's eyes. His hand shrank subconsciously, but he quickly realized that it was to no avail.
He could only explain, "Lucia, I've been serious about our relationship, but I have no other choices... I have reasons to get engaged to Julia. I know I broke my promise to you by getting engaged to her, and I also know that we would never get back together because of it. I just can't accept that you thought I am fooling you all the time. I'm not!"
"Hehe..." Lucia laughed bitterly. Looking at Arthur's sincere eyes, she felt her world collapse.
Then she asked, "You can't accept it, huh? Then what do you expect me to do?"
Before Arthur could say anything, Lucia continued sarcastically.
"To forgive you for choosing to be engaged to another woman, to believe in your love for me, and to share you with Juliana? Arthur, is that what you want to tell me?"
"I didn't mean that!" Arthur retorted loudly, He knew that Lucia was saying cross words, but they were too hurtful, "Nothing can be changed though I say this. I just want you to know that I love you and I have never changed!"
Arthur knew that Lucia would see those reports after his engagement made the news. If he was a coward, he could have chosen not to see Lucia, not to explain, not to tell her his true feelings, but he couldn't. He couldn't accept that Lucia had denied the love between them because of his choice.
He loved Lucia, and that was what he wanted to tell her.
"Arthur ..." Hearing Arthur's confession of love again, Lucia smiled helplessly and asked him.
"If you loved me, would you not trust me? If you loved me, would you have hugged another woman? Arthur, be a man and just admit that you are fooling me. Why do you have to come and tell me that you have no other choices after hurting me?"
'Do you know how much this hurts me?'
Lucia really wanted to yell that out hard.
"Juliana's pregnant!" Lucia suppressed the impulse, but Arthur couldn't. He was sad that Lucia misunderstood him and could only tell Lucia his reasons by yelling.
Lucia froze at her words, but turbulent emotions possessed her.
So... Juliana was pregnant...
Lucia felt heartbroken.
"Congratulations, then." Uttering these words weakly, Lucia felt that all her strength had been drained from her body, and perhaps even her soul was long gone.
"Lucia..." Seeing Lucia like this, Arthur felt distressed. He stepped forward and extended his hand to her. He thought she would back away, but he didn't expect that Lucia's feet would go weak and she almost slumped down.
Arthur hurriedly held Lucia in his arms. Her cold body temperature made him worried and the wetness on his palms made his heart contract.
Lifting Lucia's small face, Arthur realized that she was in tears.
"Why are you saying this to me...' .." Lucia couldn't help but choke up, unable to hold back her grievance and sadness any longer. "You are the one that says you love me but also the one who hurts me... I just want to be loved and cared for..."
"Lucia." Arthur hugged Lucia tightly and kept explaining, "I'm really sorry, Julia had a baby because of the accident that night. I didn't want it, but I took her to the hospital for a checkup to know that there was a blockage in her tubes, it was difficult for her to conceive a child after the abortion. I'm sorry to you and Teddy, but I can't abandon Julia. I can assure you that I will never touch her again. You are the only woman I love in my life."
"So you chose to give up on me?" Lucia snapped sadly.
"Lucia, I'm sorry..." Arthur, though heartbroken, could only say sorry.
If he could leave everything behind and take Lucia away, he would, but he couldn't. He had a heavy responsibility to bear.
His apology made Lucia discouraged.
"I know," Lucia seemed to recover her strength. She gently pushed Arthur away, lowered her head and whispered.
"I know all your inner struggles. Juliana is your childhood friend. She has suffered a lot. If you abandon her and choose to stay with me, she may commit suicide and you will only become a sinner." Lucia knew Arthur had no other choice. Her thoughtfulness made Arthur feel more distressed for her.
"I am okay," Lucia continued, as she raised her hand to wipe her tears.
"Just go and do what you feel is right. It's not like we are meant to be together. I admit we were once in love. I will no longer think that you are cheating on me. I just take it as God's trick." Lucia had thought it through. She couldn't get it, so she would just let it go.
"Lucia, don't be like this..." Arthur knew Lucia was pretending to be strong. He was sad.
"What else can I do?" Lucia smiled bitterly and asked Arthur, "If I were to ask you to leave Juliana alone and stay with me and with Teddy, could you do it?"
Arthur was speechless and could only gaze into Lucia's eyes, revealing his guilt.This is the property of Nô-velDrama.Org.
"You can't." Lucia laughed self-deprecatingly. "Since you can't do it, then let's take our own responsibility and go our own way."
Lucia announced to have a clean break with Arthur.