Self Control
Damien’s POVProperty © of NôvelDrama.Org.
I’ve always prided myself for having a whole lot of self control. But not today. It seems like my self control is being put to the test today. It’s so damn frustrating!
After telling her how I feel about her, I left her in her room, giving her the chance to think about it. I felt her sadness when I left her in that room, it’s exactly how I feel too.
Alvin wouldn’t stop howling in anger. He doesn’t understand why we aren’t marking and claiming our mate right now. All he wants is to have her close by so he can cuddle and caress her while she sleeps in my arms.
I bet he hasn’t thought of how she would react when she finds out that I am a werewolf. She may freak out and run away if I just let my wolf out on her right now, I just have to take it slow and easy, with time, she’ll come to love me as much as I love her and when finally decide to tell her about Alvin, am sure she’ll accept him too.
When I got to my room, I took off my clothes and threw them in the laundry basket, then I got into the bathroom to run a quick shower.
The chilling water soothed my body and it also lessened the ache I was feeling between my legs. I had only wanted to run a quick shower but I couldn’t bring myself to leave the bathtub.
This is pure torture!
I wonder if I’ll be able to keep my promise to her. I need her by my side, right now. I was able to live without her before but I just can’t do it anymore, not when she is just across my room.
There’s just one door separating us both, but I just can’t go through it because of a stupid promise that I just made. What the hell was I thinking when I said those words?
Fuck! I really need her in my arms.
As I laid in my bathtub, I lay trying to come up with an excuse that would take me to her room. I decided to go in there and tell her that I came to protect her and keep her safe, but that’ll be going against my own words because I just assured her that she’s safe in this house.
I came up with another crazy idea. I wanted to grab a quick snack from the kitchen and take it over to her but that’s a stupid and dumb idea because we just had dinner a few minutes ago in the dining hall with my family.
Nothing seems to work out the way I want, the best way is to keep to my promises and let her sleep peacefully, I can just get Stacy to come over and suck me off and make me feel good.
I’ve always used her to get my sexual satisfaction, it wouldn’t be the first time, besides, she enjoys it as much as I do so it’s kind of a win-win situation. I can end all contact with her after tonight.
I got out of the bathtub and wrapped a towel around my waist before stepping out of the bathroom, then I contacted Ralph through our mind link,
“Send stacy up here man, I need her.” I told him pointedly.
“Are you fucking insane? Why would you need stay when you have your Luna up there with you, that’s so messed up man!!
How would she feel if she finds you fucking that rude whore on the first day that she arrives? She’s going to feel so hurt and sad, and it’s gonna be all your fault because you can’t keep it in your pants.
Am sorry Alpha, I love and respect you and you know it, but am not going to let you hurt and disrespect our Luna Am going over to the omega’s quarters and am standing watch at stacys door tonight, no one is getting her for you, not tonight Alpha.
Anyone warrior that comes here would have to go through me, and you know it will be impossible to go past me, right? Go be with your mate bro, make her happy, she’s all yours, Stacy is off limits to you Alpha, you ain’t getting laid tonight, trust me.” He said in a warning tone before breaking our mind link so quickly before I could use my Alphas tone to command him.
Am so fucked right now!
I know Ralph so damn well, he wasn’t joking around when he said he was going to stand watch outside of Stacys room, am sure he’s standing there right now, making it impossible for me to send anyone to get her for me.
I flopped down on the bed in absolute frustration, swearing and cursing out loudly. Am definitely not getting laid tonight. For fucks sake, I don’t even want to get laid, I just want to hold her in my arms and cuddle her until she falls asleep in my arms,
Is that too much to ask?
I just want to be close to my mate, basking in her warmth, feeling the passion and joy that only her can offer me. I just can’t bear to stay away from her for even one night.
I kept turning and rolling on the bed, begging for sleep to take over but I just couldn’t sleep. Worst yet, Alvin wouldn’t stop nagging and pestering me to go over to her,
“You idiot, you left our mate all alone in that room. She’s going to hate us for abandoning her, she’ll think we don’t love her, she’ll think we despise her. Our mate needs us. She’s all alone and she’s lonely and scared.” Alvin kept pleading in my head, urging me to go to her.
For once, I quite agree with him. I mean, I also feel only and sad, I need her as much as she needs me. I can’t torture myself anymore, I decided to call her and find out what she’s doing right now, my mind would be at peace once I hear her sweet angelic voice. I picked up my phone to dial her number,
Wait,
Hold up,
She doesn’t have a phone, I took her phone away when she wasn’t looking. I don’t want her to reach out to anyone. Believe me, I love her so much and I trust her completely but I don’t think she can resist the urge to contact her family and tell them that she is doing okay.
It would ruin my reputation if outsiders get to find out that am being kind and lenient to a girl that is supposed to be treated as a slave. Am definitely going to let her meet with her family again, but not so soon. Right now, all I want is to make her fall in love with me and accept me completely.
I got up from my bed and walked into my closet to fetch one of my sweatpants, after getting it on, I returned the towel back to the bathroom before, heading to her room with a spare phone I got for her.
I had my technicians work on it so she wouldn’t be able to call any other numbers except mine. She can only call and receive calls from me for now, with time though, I’ll give her more freedom and let her call out as well.
When I got to her room, she wasn’t lying on the bed like I thought. She was having a bath in the bathroom, getting ready to go to sleep. I fought the urge to go take a peak at her while she is bathing
I know that if I go in there and see her completely naked body, there will be no telling what am going to do. My self control is already wearing out, I will be forced to mark and claim her tonight and nothing would stop me, nothing at all.
I quickly placed the phone under her pillow, then I sneaked out of her room as quietly as I came. I waited a few minutes before calling her back. I felt a little sad when she did take my call, but just when I was about to give up and hang up, she picked it up and I could hear the churning of the fan in her room, a sign that she could hear me,
“Hey babe, did I wake you up?” I asked her calmly.
“No, I was wide awake before your call came in. I couldn’t sleep because I was so lonely after you left.” She confessed truthfully, making me chuckle happily. At least am not the one feeling miserable tonight, thank God the bond works both ways.
“How would you like to come spend the night with me here?” I invited her but she didn’t say a word in response, she just kept mute, then I realized that she could still be feeling a little bit shy, so I offered to go over and keep her company, like I said earlier, I’ll have to go slow and steady until that thick wall that she built around her heart finally comes crumbling down.
I strolled out of my room and pushed open the door to her room, the room was dimly lit because she had turned off some lights, but with my enhanced eyesight, I could see her very clearly.
She is wearing a blue sexy lingerie night wear that made her look like a sexy temptress. I had picked it for her earlier today when I took her for shopping, it was so beautiful on the display shelf and just couldn’t resist the urge to pick it up for her, and I couldn’t be more proud as I saw it on her right now.
Her sexy hot body made it more beautiful and it suits her perfectly. The lacy cups that’s hold her boobs are made in a half cut shape, putting her boobs on display as they nearly spilled out of the cups, begging to be smooched and caressed.
She perched on the bed, checking me out with lust written all over her face, her eyes trailed my whole body and I felt my skin burn in need of her touch. I stayed on the same spot admiring her heavenly beauty. Her body is the type that makes runway models feel jealous.
She is so damn gorgeous and as I gaze into her eyes, I knew deep within me that I can never be satisfied by any other woman, except her. Ralph was right, she’s all I need, no one else but her.
She got down from the bed and sauntered towards me, keeping her eyes locked on mine as her hips swayed seductively. I marveled at her boldness. She seems unaware of the risk she’s taking, looking so sexy and tempting in front of a ravenous werewolf.
I already have a hard time controlling Alvin right now. Am hanging on a thin thread as it is, it’s only going to take a little push and I’ll lose every bit of self control that I have left, and there’s no telling what I would do when that happens.
I watched the rhythmic movement of her hips as she walked towards me, her matching blue thong did nothing to conceal her sexy ass and her vee-shaped slit. I only had to shift the flimsy excuse for a panties or better yet, I’ll rip them right off of her and ill ga access to her delicious honeypot.
She stood right in, front of me, smiling shyly with her eyes glued to mine. I could feel my eyes darken in lust as Alvin struggled to break free. I brought my hands forward and wrapped them around her waist, pulling her towards me as I captured her lips in a passionate, head-spinning kiss that took our breath away.
My hands moved to her thighs and I pulled her up on my body, wrapping her legs around my waist as I carried her to the bed and laid her gently in the middle of the bed, before climbing to lie besides her and turning her to face me as I took her mouth once more, kissing her so fiercely, eliciting involuntary moans from her.
She became bolder by the minute, kissing me back with equal urgency, matching my kisses with her own, teasing me with her tongue, moaning out so loudly that I feared we would wake up everyone in this pack house.
The smell of her arousal is getting stronger, my whole body is flowing with sparks of electricity and my dick is fully aroused and standing at full length. My rational self is warning me to stop this right now because it may not be what she really wants, it could be the pull and attraction of the mating bond that’s messing with her head, making her feel so horny.
“We have to stop this Sofi,” I announced with a voice that’s so thick with arousal.